But where did last month actually go?
In fact , where the hell did the whole of this year go??
Time just seems to be speeding up - on fast forward .
It seems I can’t actually remember what I did in the last 7 days, let alone this last month. It’s all a bit of a blur.
It makes me panic sometimes.
I can get anxious about the years thundering by. And when I do a bit of ‘life’ planning, ‘time’ in terms of my professional working life appears to offer a slightly bumpy road ahead - the ‘what and ‘how’ feels now quite restricted by the ‘when’
Yesterday, I had a lovely afternoon planned with my Mum in Manchester. Everything seemed to be against me on my journey there - the train strike meant I had to drive and because of this, the roads were choc-a-bloc. My SatNav didn’t know whether it was coming or going, constantly re-routing in order to try (and fail) to avoid the traffic jams.
Roads were closed all over the city (turns out it’s down to the Tory party conference)
In the end , I decided to park further away and walk.
I had the main parking apps on my phone, but it was sods law that my chosen car park used a totally different system. With 5 minutes left to speed walk through the city, I suddenly had to faff around inputting personal details and my bank card into a new app.
I tried to multi task - walking, trying to balance my umbrella whilst trying to read the number on my bank card. It wasn’t working so I had no choice but to stop.
It was raining in true Manchester style , and what I noticed, once I had finally finished faffing with my parking app was the sound of the rain.
I stood still, just for an extra precious minute to listen.
I love the sound of the rain - it takes me to a place of calm and comfort. It actually (weirdly) steadies my breathing. Just taking that minute made me feel grounded and more in control.
I was reminded how important it is to punctuate life’s ‘busyness’ with moments of stillness - to reorientate myself in the moment. To lift up my head and take a look at life around me.
And maybe if I do this more often, life might not rush by as quickly.
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