AKA frantically running around trying to do everything as quickly as possible because the ‘To Do’ list is never bloody ending!
My ‘bustling about’ led to my excruciating 3 hour online ‘Drive Safe’ course this afternoon (3 hours of my life I’ll never get back but at least I won’t get 3 points on my licence)
Further ‘bustling about’ led to a smashed box of eggs in the Co-op this morning, trying to juggle too much stuff because I was in a rush and couldn’t find the time to get a basket 🙈
‘Bustling about’ with laundry baskets up and down stairs has led to the same poor toe being broken twice . My right foot looks a complete mess now 🦶
Bustle Bustle Bustle
Rush Rush Rush
I’m presuming that this is how the life of a busy ‘50 something’ woman with two teenage daughters, a full time job and home to run is just meant to be?
I mean, if I don’t do all of this stuff and do it quickly, how on earth am I meant to get everything done???
And when will I ever get chance to just bloody sit down and be still???
Try NOW
How about RIGHT NOW.
Seriously - if I look at my ‘to do’ list, how much of it is really ‘life and death’? How much of it is ‘non-negotiable’ ?
And how much of it feeds my soul? 🤔
It is quite possible that in all of this ‘bustling about’ a whole day, week, month …..or YEAR went past and I hardly looked up to take it all in ….. too buried in my relentless ‘to do’ list to pause and experience the small pleasures of each ‘now’ moment.
And when I do force myself to stop and pause , I am able to breathe, look around, feel the air on my skin and the ground beneath my feet.
It gives me a sense of stability.
A sense of control and calm.
And joy in the moment 😌
It doesn’t matter if today I have failed in my attempt to totally re-organise the kitchen cupboards or ‘deep clean’ the lounge. Nobody else in the house cares anyway.
My exhaustive ‘to do’ list and bustling about (AKA frantically running around trying to do everything as quick as possible) is my own making.
My choice.
And so it is my choice to just stop, be still and be PRESENT.
Bustling about can wait.
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